Someday…

Other than the fact that we are leaving it all up to God this month, we really have no news. I am contemplating on how I will make the announcement to everyone out there. I will need an online way to announce it, a Bible-Study way to announce and then a parents way… so that WHEN it DOES happen, we can let everyone know in a creative way. It hasn’t happened yet, people.

I am spending lunch and this afternoon with Cristy who is due in mid December (December 21, 2004). She will find out the gender of their child in two weeks, so we’re gonna do a little pre-gender-knowledge nursery research at Baby Depot to see what kind of baby stuff they have compared to Babies ‘R Us and Target.

Tomorrow I may get together with Lisa (Feb 1, 2005) and Nicole (Sept 6, 2004) (yes, their due dates are in parenthesis) to watch yet another thrilling summer blockbuster rental. Lisa is in the middle of her first trimester and is sick a lot of the time. Nicole is in her third trimester and says that she is sick a lot of the time, but in a different way than the first trimester.

And in other news, well, I guess it’s not really news, but I’m still excited for them… Chris and Darlene (Nov. 30, 2004) found out the gender of their baby yesterday. I still don’t know what they’re having, but I don’t want to barge in on Darlene’s email account as if I knew her, which I don’t. Perhaps I will ask next month when I send them an email for their anniversary.

For me, the months can’t seem to pass fast enough until September. I would really love to be covered by insurance and pregnant in September, even if I will be sick beyond all sickness. I think it’s my body talking, you know. I feel like I cannot control this hunger to be pregnant and have a baby… it’s not like a decision I made, it’s like an appetite. I started feeling this way two years ago but David’s logic against children always won. It was hard agreeing with him that we needed to be in a little better situation… It was hard to continue taking that stupid little pill. Emotionally, it was hard hiding from him the turmoil I was in by this drive to have children. I always told him I didn’t want them. I don’t get along with children… They’re loud, rude, careless, greedy… but that’s other people’s children. How could our children possibly be loud, rude, careless and greedy? (haha, don’t answer that!) We won’t know until we meet them. Oh to hold our baby in my arms and look at them eye to eye. Someday…